Free and beautiful

Free and beautiful

Words to the Sociopath

With your boyish charm you stole my heart,
took my breath, enchanted my mind.
Then the mask fell leaving me bewildered.

The cruel words that spewed from lips I once cherished were meant to crush my spirit.

My heart now has surfaced from the black depths.
Layers of your negativity peeled from my heart.

I breathe.
I breathe freedom.
I breathe peace.

I wake each morning to the power within myself to live my life beautiful.
Destroy my esteem you didn’t.
 
I am stronger than before.
I am beautiful.
I am FREE.

Lorrie Lawson, April 2013

(Image credit: Vajarto Wallpaper)

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Health, mindfulness, Narcissistic Sociopath, Peace, Poetry, Psychopaths, Recovery, Relationships, Sociopaths
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  1. Freedom. A very grand thing. Celebrating with you. Shandra

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  2. After reading this I know I’m not alone. I nearly lost myself through depression, but found a great counselor who has helped untangle my mind. When I have waivered whether to stay or go he said (which was totally different than anything he stated before,) “Well, Brenda, you can always live with the mean son-of-a-bitch!” This brought be back to reality! Yes, the “N” can be charming…..but only when it serves HIM!

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    • That is a great counselor!!! Most aren’t that bold or intrusive. Sounds like your counselor truly understands and maybe has experienced a similar situation. Regardless, I’m glad you are emerging from you depression and not going back. 😉

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  3. I couldn’t help but feel done today. The sociopath, the one that I loved completely, deeply, and wholly for a year and a half, and the person that I though I had a future with, discarded me unexpectedly about a month ago. He made me feel like I was the most beautiful, most intelligent woman he had ever met….even going so far as to tell me that he would never find another me. Now I’m struggling with myself, and my own personal identity. Suddenly I’m questioning the validity of his words since he left me so abruptly. Like who can truly discard someone they claimed was wonderful, beautiful, and intelligent? Nowadays I’m not feeling any of those things…and I don’t know when I started allowing my self-worth to be dictated by his perception of me. I seem to be the lonely sad one, but whenever I see him now he’s partying it up, with some beautiful young girl on his arm….he looks so happy, and unaffected while I’m hurting…dying inside because I really loved him…

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    • I could have written this reply .. Every single word and sentiment I carry with me too. I don’t know how that happens, I don’t have any answers, but you aren’t alone if that helps.

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  4. That was beautiful and SO inspiring! And “her” sociopath sounds just like “mine” (ex)–boyish charm, I ADORED him, then viciousness, lying, cheating, backstabbing. A year and a half after I finally left and I’m still not ready to write something like this, but I’m hopeful!

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  5. I hear you on this particular refrain!

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  6. Beautiful photo !!! You have the power , we all have the power !! To free ourselves from the chains that bind us and break free of the assholes that placed them on us.

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  7. How beautiful and exactly describes the way I felt when I realized one morning that he wasn’t the very first thing I thought of when I woke up. I WAS FREE!!!!!!!!!!

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  8. THANK YOU!! I’m putting this on my mirror. Thank you Paula, for sharing this and thank Lorrie for the beautiful and powerful words of the most simple grace imaginable. I love you both for it!

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